Something has been amiss with my current goals in writing and I know it’s not writer’s block. When I sit down at my computer with a mind on one of my novels, my mind goes blank as soon as I begin the process. I wonder if anyone ever felt like this before. Have you ever felt like the dream of becoming a successful writer instantly flies out the window as soon as you start actually writing? I hope I’m not alone in this wild dream of storytelling.
It’s not procrastination becasue I sit at my computer everyday and try to write either for school or work, but when it comes to fun, that’s another story (no pun intended). I know for sure it’s not writers block. I have the words in my head or down on paper ready to be copied onto the screen. I think I know what it is that’s keeping me from writing the story of my dreams. It’s Fear
I have nothing to loose, but I’m terrified of failing. This is something bigger than myself so of course I will try to take care of it like my own child. I’m going to school for writing, but I fear that I am wasting my time and my money. I am writing on topics that I take personal, but I’m terrified of the backlash I may receive for just writing what’s on my mind. The world has become so sensitive. Then I think of the moment when I finish the manuscript of my dreams. There’s fear in that! I fear I wont find an editor or I will but my story will be so shitty they wont even bother to change anything. Being introverted isn’t making my situation better either! I fear the marketing process. UHHHHHH! This is so frustrating, but at least I’m writing right now (this blog post).
To Write
Or To Not Write
I got this far. I might as well keep going because it’s what I love to do . You guys do the same! Keep writing. The world needs our stories.
